Making 26 my best year!

Today is August 17th 2010. I am officially 26 years old....on the other side on my way to 30 :(     OH MY!  I have decided I have had enough of being unhealthy and I have had enough of losing a ton of weight and gaining a ton of weight, and then some, back. I am a married woman now and it is time for me to take charge of my life so I can be a healthy mom in a few years and so I can be beside my husband for many years to come. I have started a little. Since Monday, I have tried to cut back on the caloric intake. I worked out over the weekend. Working out will be a whole other can of worms. Where I work out there are a lot of meat heads and barbies. They love to take one look at me and give me the dirtiest looks like I dont belong there. I imagine them saying in their head " Why are you even trying?" This kind of negative thinking has to stop as well. I have to stop this self-destructive behavior. I might be a biggest loser reject (yes I went to a casting call and they didnt pick me) but I am ready to do this.......it is going to be hard especially since I know I can do it...I just need some help. I dont really push myself if I dont have to....I need help....I need a Jillian Michaels....anyone up for the job? I am going to spend the rest of my birthday snuggling with my husband.....gotta be back up at 5:30am for work...yay